back

From: "adriana XXXXXXX" <adriana_XXXXXXX@XXXXXXX.com>
To: <altovoce@swbell.net>
Sent: Tuesday, May 27, 2003 3:34 PM
Subject: I forwarded it!

I sent this letter you wrote me to XXXXXX.
Hope he gets to understand and that it may help him also because it helped me to understand him better. Thank you.
Sincerely,
Adriana



From: "adriana XXXXXXX" <adriana_XXXXXXX@XXXXXXX.com>
Sent: Tuesday, May 27, 2003 4:34 PM
To: Koshenina, Eugene
Subject: will send you the amount in cash!

Dear Eugene!
Thanks for the information. I will put the amount in an envelope and will send it to you. I just can not figure out the of the postage ...postage.....will try to find out and will send you more than the cost of the CD. Will send also a picture of James and myself. If you can, give the pictures for the Priest to touch and bless us thru the pictures also. Or put them on the prayers box. I haven't heard from him. I don't even know where he is right now and how he is. This is for sure the darkest moment of my entire life with the exception of when I was 27 years and almost died but the Lord saved me thru the inner healing.

Yes, I count on your prayers very badly. I want the Lord to bring my husband back to me. I want the Lord heals and protect him. May the blood of Jesus cover him and procted now and always.

Thank you so very much, May God bless you all. I went to see Father De Grandis last weekend in Brazil at CANCAO NOVA and it was great joy for me to hear him. May God always bless him.
Adriana



From: Koshenina, Eugene
Sent: Tuesday, May 27, 2003 4:18 PM
To: 'adriana XXXXXX'
Subject: RE: MERCY CD

Dear Adriana,
If you get on our web site www.degrandisssj.com you can see all of our CDs and tapes and books. You can use the "Ordering" page to select what you want, and then add up the cost plus postage. Please convert the total to international currency.

Then you can send us a letter with a check or money order together with your order in the envelope and we will send you whatever you ordered. Just address the letter to:

Degrandis/Kittley
17 Oak Harbor Drive
Houston, TX 77062.

God continues to help you, Adriana, and we pray that He bless you even more profusely.
Love, Father and Gene and Chu



From: "adriana XXXXXXX" <adriana_XXXXXXX@XXXXXXX.com>
Sent: Tuesday, May 27, 2003 2:34 PM
To: Koshenina, Eugene
Subject: MERCY CD

Dear Eugene!

Thanks again for the kind letter. How can I get this CD being in Brazil?? Would you send it to me if I send you the cash? How could I do that? I have been asking Andrew to send me the Father books but he just ignores my letters. I would love to hear this CD. In fact, I do need to hear things like that. Since yesterday, my only prayer has been PRAISE PRAYER. I have been thanking GOD all the time for this situation. There is nothing I could do except PRAISE the Lord for He is the one who knows everything.

Please, let me hear how to get this CD being so far away from you.
Love, Adriana



From: Koshenina, Eugene
Sent: Tuesday, May 27, 2003 2:24 PM
To: "adriana XXXXXXX" <adriana_XXXXXXX@XXXXXXX.com>
Subject: RE: Please, never stop!

Dear Adriana,
You wrote, "How can I overcome my pain when I say wrong things to him?? It seems there is no hopes if it weren't for the Mercy of God.....And I trust that the Lord will take care of this situation, as dark as it may seem for now....." Adriana, you may want to consider getting one of Father's CDs. They seem to help a lot of people.

The "Mercy" CD might be the one you want because people remark that it brings them so much peace. It has Father praying unusual prayers, and also Cecilia and a gentleman are singing chaplet of mercy songs in harmony, it's quite beautiful. One lady wrote that not a single day will pass that she doesn't play the "Mercy" CD. She said it has helped her so much.
We are praying for you, Adriana!
Love, Father and Gene and Chu



From: "adriana XXXXXXX" <adriana_XXXXXXX@XXXXXXX.com>
To: <altovoce@swbell.net>
Sent: Monday, May 26, 2003 8:26 PM
Subject: Please, never stop!

Dear Eugene and Chu!
Thanks again for the kind letter. You know.....there are times, thing seem so messed up between him and I! As much as I try to be patient with him, there are times I do so many dumb things...I want him back to me so badly! I feel desperate sometimes as if only dying would be the answer for this pain.....he says he can't handle me but I am not perfect. Sometimes I have a relapse and hurt him to protect myself from his insensitivity towards myself. But I know this is so very wrong. THere are times, I wish I was not like that, so impulsive....but I never mean to hurt him. I just mean to shake him for life......because I do love him dearly! I couldn't handle if he does not forgive me or don't come back to me. Thank you for the prayers. How can I overcome my pain when I say wrong things to him?? It seems there is no hopes if it weren't for the Mercy of God.....And I trust that the Lord will take care of this situation, as dark as it may seem for now......I can not live without him......this is so much painful too me.....it seems he
wants to punish me and all I did is his welfare and his being healed the same I too want the same for me. I too did such a hurtful childhood....we both were hurt but I don't believe in coincidences. I believe in the POWER OF GOD! ALWAYS....sorry if I am bothering you but please, ask Father in person to pray for us. I am waiting for a miracle........I do believe in miracles......will always do !
Thank you so much!
Sincerely,
Adriana/Brazil



From: "adriana XXXXXXX" <adriana_XXXXXXX@XXXXXXX.com>
Sent: Tuesday, May 27, 2003 4:34 PM
To: Koshenina, Eugene
Subject: will send you the amount in cash!

Dear Eugene!
Thanks for the information. I will put the amount in an envelope and will send it to you. I just can not figure out the of the postage ...postage.....will try to find out and will send you more than the cost of the CD. Will send also a picture of James and myself. If you can, give the pictures for the Priest to touch and bless us thru the pictures also. Or put them on the prayers box. I haven't heard from him. I don't even know where he is right now and how he is. This is for sure the darkest moment of my entire life with the exception of when I was 27 years and almost died but the Lord saved me thru the inner
healing.
Yes, I count on your prayers very badly. I want the Lord to bring my husband back to me. I want the Lord heals and protect him. May the blood of Jesus cover him and procted now and always.
Thank you so very much, May God bless you all. I went to see Father De Grandis last weekend in Brazil at CANCAO NOVA and it was great joy for me to hear him. May God always bless him.
Adriana



From: Koshenina, Eugene
Sent: Tuesday, May 27, 2003 4:18 PM
To: 'adriana XXXXXX'
Subject: RE: MERCY CD

Dear Adriana,
If you get on our web site www.degrandisssj.com you can see all of our CDs and tapes and books. You can use the "Ordering" page to select what you want, and then add up the cost plus postage.
Please convert the total to international currency.

Then you can send us a letter with a check or money order together with your order in the envelope and we will send you whatever you ordered. Just address the letter to:

Degrandis/Kittley
17 Oak Harbor Drive
Houston, TX 77062.

God continues to help you, Adriana, and we pray that He bless you even more profusely.
Love, Father and Gene and Chu



From: "adriana XXXXXXX" <adriana_XXXXXXX@XXXXXXX.com>
Sent: Tuesday, May 27, 2003 2:34 PM
To: Koshenina, Eugene
Subject: MERCY CD

Dear Eugene!

Thanks again for the kind letter. How can I get this CD being in Brazil?? Would you send it to me if I send you the cash? How could I do that? I have been asking Andrew to send me the Father books but he just ignores my letters. I would love to hear this CD. In fact, I do need to hear things like that. Since yesterday, my only prayer has been PRAISE PRAYER. I have been thanking GOD all the time for this situation. There is nothing I could do except PRAISE the Lord for He is the one who knows everything.

Please, let me hear how to get this CD being so far away from you.
Love, Adriana



From: Koshenina, Eugene
Sent: Tuesday, May 27, 2003 2:24 PM
To: "adriana XXXXXXX" <adriana_XXXXXXX@XXXXXXX.com>
Subject: RE: Please, never stop!

Dear Adriana,
You wrote, "How can I overcome my pain when I say wrong things to him?? It seems there is no hopes if it weren't for the Mercy of God.....And I trust that the Lord will take care of this situation, as dark as it may seem for now....." Adriana, you may want to consider getting one of Father's CDs. They seem to help a lot of people.

The "Mercy" CD might be the one you want because people remark that it brings them so much peace. It has Father praying unusual prayers, and also Cecilia and a gentleman are singing chaplet of mercy songs in harmony, it's quite beautiful. One lady wrote that not a single day will pass that she doesn't play the "Mercy" CD. She said it has helped her so much.
We are praying for you, Adriana!
Love, Father and Gene and Chu



From: "adriana XXXXXXX" <adriana_XXXXXXX@XXXXXXX.com>
To: <altovoce@swbell.net>
Sent: Monday, May 26, 2003 8:26 PM
Subject: Please, never stop!


Dear Eugene and Chu!
Thanks again for the kind letter. You know.....there are times, thing seem so messed up between him and I! As much as I try to be patient with him, there are times I do so many dumb things...I want him back to me so badly! I feel desperate sometimes as if only dying would be the answer for this pain.....he says he can't handle me but I am not perfect. Sometimes I have a relapse and hurt him to protect myself from his insensitivity towards myself. But I know this is so very wrong. THere are times, I wish I was not like that, so impulsive....but I never mean to hurt him. I just mean to shake him for life......because I do love him dearly! I couldn't handle if he does not forgive me or don't come back to me. Thank you for the prayers. How can I overcome my pain when I say wrong things to him?? It seems there is no hopes if it weren't for the Mercy of God.....And I trust that the Lord will take care of this situation, as dark as it may seem for now......I can not live without him......this is so much painful too me.....it seems he
wants to punish me and all I did is his welfare and his being healed the same I too want the same for me. I too did such a hurtful childhood....we both were hurt but I don't believe in coincidences. I believe in the POWER OF GOD! ALWAYS....sorry if I am bothering you but please, ask Father in person to pray for us. I am waiting for a miracle........I do believe in miracles......will always do !
Thank you so much!
Sincerely,
Adriana/Brazil



From: "Chu Koshenina" <altovoce@swbell.net>
To: "adriana XXXXXX" <adriana_XXXXXX@XXXXXXX.com>
Sent: Monday, May 26, 2003 6:50 PM
Subject: Re: Prayer request from Brazil

Hi Adriana,
No, we will never forget you. We will pray for you daily and offer up masses for both of you. We will communicate your letters to Father, Adriana. God bless you, little angel!
Love, Eugene and Chu



From: "Adriana XXXXXX" <adriana_XXXXXXX@XXXXXX.com>
To: <altovoce@swbell.net>
Sent: Monday, May 26, 2003 5:53 PM
Subject: Re: Prayer request from Brazil

I thank you so much for your kind letter. Please, never forget to pray for me, and for my husband, XXXXXX. Yes, I DO WAIT FOR A MIRACLE happens in our lives.....please, ask Father to pray for him to be healed from his wounds and come back to me, in Brazil.
Love,
Adriana

From: Eugene Koshenina
Date: Monday, May 26, 2003 4:14 PM
To: Adriana XXXXXX
Subject: Re: Prayer Request from Brazil

Dear Adriana,

Happy Birthday, I hope and pray that you had a nice birthday. I am sorry for the suffering you and XXXXXX are going through. Apparently XXXXXX's mother had some serious hurts and issues with men, and thus she likely needs deep healing too. XXXXXX's wounds are most difficult to heal because they scarred him as a young child. He may have fallen back on money as something "he can count on" - it always seems to work in this world. Of course, this is an illusion that is greatly enhanced by satan as he cleverly lays his snare.

You have said that XXXXXX has a tough heart. This is usually a facade, he has built a shell around himself for protection as a barrier against further hurts. This is an ordinary defense mechanism designed for survival. Money seems to fill the emotional hole even to the point of satisfaction when one is younger, but as one gets older it proves to be less and less satisfying. The real problems which are emotional and relational and spiritual then surface and begin to overwhelm, thus stuttering and depression may even worsen. The final stage in this is what has actually already developed, a deep inner fear. Without deep healing, a person in this state usually becomes cynical and more and more unhappy as it seems to them there isn't anything to live for anymore. The problems seem unsolvable. More and more XXXXXX is convinced that he has done wrong, that he should be punished, and that there should be no escape from this for him.

Of course, this is all untrue. One can forgive and be freed from the oppressive burden of guilt and fear. XXXXXX is hurt by his past and he is afraid of the future. It would be so helpful to XXXXXX if he would just begin to get into the habit of focusing ONLY on the present because when you are in the present you are in the presence of God. XXXXXX and you (and all of us) should receive the sacraments as frequently as possible because the Holy Spirit will resolve our issues so powerfully yet subtly that we may be unaware of healing except for the surprise that we suddenly realize that we are feeling better. Saying the "Forgiveness Prayer" would help XXXXXX greatly; this is available in several books such as "Pray Your Way to Happiness" and also as a "prayer card."

XXXXXX need not worry or be sad or negatively affected by his natural mother as he has the Blessed Virgin Mary, the actual mother of God Incarnate as his mother. He need only accept her love and think of her and pray to her a little. She demands nothing, she only asks that we pray even a little to her and/or her Son. Let them work the miracles, it is so easy for them. Mary has never been refused anything by God in her 2000+ years of existence because she knows the mind of God and asks only for holy things, things that help us and heal us and give us the brightest future. Jesus is the lover of the universe and everything in it, He is so eager to help but we must not block God's Holy Spirit from affecting us. But we have free will, so we can refuse God, but of course it is so foolhardy to do so.

Adriana, let us all pray together for a miracle for you and XXXXXX that your relationship may be healed, and that both of you may undergo deep conversion. We pray that you may both be healed and become happy. We pray this in Jesus' mighty name through the merits of His precious blood in union with His Father and their Holy Spirit. Amen, and amen, and amen!

We love you and will continue to pray for you. Father will remember you and all who write asking for prayer in Holy Mass.

Father and Gene and Chu




From: "adriana XXXXXX" <adriana_XXXXXX@XXXXXXX.com>
To: <cecilia@degrandisssj.com>
Cc: <altovoce@swbell.com>
Sent: Friday, May 23, 2003 5:27 PM
Subject: Prayer request from Brazil

Hello!
I tried to send this email before thru OUTLOOK EXPRESS but it didn't work. Hope it goes thru now.

My husband and I are the second marriage, we both.....but we intend to get married at Church, well, I intend that, (we both are able to get the anulment at Church, mine is about to finish with the process at Church and his also is possible to get it in the US from his first wife) but it seems he does not want to see me for now....he left me in Brazil not even saying good bye to me so sick he is and also depressed....I do love him and I have always thought he does love me......lately, it seems he is living a spiritual battle. We both went into a deep therapy, catholic one, but it seems it did not have any effect on him.........

We had many fights, he does not accept the fact that he has retired from the Air Force. We built a home together, we had so many plans and dreams but as time went by, he got even more agressive to me (emotional agressions) and - to protect myself - I told him things that I shouldn't have told him. We did have wonderful moments together, but he is a sick man, so many traumas with his mother, ex wife, and he can not forgive himself or anyone else....if he does, he says he can not forget the hurt. He left me in Brazil, after building the new home without any explanation. Then he went back to the States and went into confession. It seems the priest he met there, didn't advice him correctly, creating more confusion in his mind. We love each other very much, but now he feels guilty about the things he did to me. I asked him to forgive me, I do forgive hiim, but he does not know the Charismatic Renewal and has a tough heart.....made of stone....money is TOO MUCH important to him, much more than I am...........I know nobody is like this for free........I know he needs prayers and inner healing badly.....I tried to convince him to come down to hear Father De Grandis at Cancao Nova but he refused himself. Tomorrow is my birthday and still, he didn't come, so far, to see me...........I have always considered him my dear husband.....he is also Catholic, he is indeed a good man, with a beautiful soul, but he has so much hurt......he has so many emotional problems.....he stutters because of what his mother would do to him....she would spank him badly when he was a kid......she would tell him he was no good, that he didn't deserve to find a nice lady to marry - that a nice lady wouldn't want him...........and when he found me, this battle started in such a way that there were times it seems it was not HIM who was talking to me.........we were happy but since he retired he changed.........he has doubts now in his heart about our
> relationship because he thinks he was not honest with me even though he says he never met a woman like me.........

Would you please tell Father De Grandis, IN PERSON, himself, to say a prayer for him?? For us?? Please, I want my husband to come back to me because he is not a bad person, and I DO LOVE HIM VERY VERY MUCH............I do.....I do believe in Miracles and in the power of God.......that if we have faith, Mountains move and miracles happen........ I thank you so much but I feel so desperate and sad.......what's more, I am too worried about him because, with the exception of his kids, he has nobody there who would care for him......he feels rather depressed and I want Father De Grandis pray for him very badly....It's about one month that I have been trying to contact Father De Grandis but the email I had would always return to me and never went thru.

Please, let me know if this letter went thru?? I too have another email address. This is it: teacher_XXX@XXXXXX.com

Thank you very very much.....I am the one who just called you from Brazil.
Sincerely,
Adriana/XXXXX XXXX


back